THE BLEEPS?

[Scott7022]

Ooops. “Pleased to meet you hope you guessed my name.” Rolling Stones.

My bad. I’d have used a tea cup if I had prior knowledge. But I didn’t. It is also bad form in Russia, not to provide if one is asked directly.

“You want a beer while you wait?”

“No. I’ve stopped drinking.”

“Ah, I see. Just a vodka then?”

“Yes”
Old school comedy routine in Russia.

Demons...

Like you said it comes down to personal responsibility. Our issues from our past are our own. They forged the machine into today’s version. But how you operate that machine is on you 100%.

I drink. No secret. Half a liter a day is usual. I joke it is not to quiet my demons but to make your demons more interesting.

I can stop anytime. I know every drunk says that. I am drunk not an alcoholic they go to meetings. Yeah old joke. I know.

I stop usually for a month once or twice a year. No issues. No cravings, no nothing. But I do understand the difficulties many have and I will adjust my behavior because I know how hard it can be. In this case I didn’t know.

I saw a glint of it on a following night, when I said I had run out, after being informed of the problem. I hadn’t and he sensed the lie. He Spoke sharp enough in response that it raised the bad wolf into my eyes when I looked at him. I said nothing in response. His past demons told him to keep stepping.

I still feel a little “at fault”. Not responsible. But... I’ve always been a bad influence. Seems my curse.

Hopefully he gets his shit together. He was a nice guy. Some people shouldn’t drink. Some people can’t.


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